Finding that perfect seashell on a cloudy day
Wishing for the rain to come
Wandering the streets and watching you take in the sights
Having a cup or 2 waiting to see what she’ll do
Hanging on the moments wandering if I’m going to be next
Pouring the water into your mouth ,I find myself following those stray drops running down your breast
I miss hanging out with you
Waiting to see where it leads, what street we wander to
What place will we be
It’s a certain type of look that gets me
It’s you looking at me
Sarcasm and disgust dripping from the corner of a curious smile
Those eyes
feelings we can’t explain
chemicals attracting, magnetizing, sending smoke signals and misreading signs
A sexual feeling that’s understood, one that translates
No need for words.
The recoil followed by confusion and complicated ideas
internal warning systems disabled, no match for this feeling thats taken me
The fear and desperation
another glance
Reassurance that it’s not just me
Stuck in the moment
Where the fantasy begins
Our lives in the flash of an eye
The isle, the nights of entanglement, the magic
It’s all just bullshit
The passion forming in the space between, losing ground, it’s closing in on us
It’s only just begun
Its exhilarating, mixing feelings of euphoria with utter despair
I can see it all in the way you move, the nervousness telling me you’re lost and looking.
Looking for me
The one
All our damage and toxicity dancing together and making plans, telling secrets that will never be revealed
The future and the past falling away for this moment while I’m caught in your gaze unable to breathe
Unable to see all the things I know are there, the darkness, the predictable nightmare.
All reason is lost, nothing else matters, caught up in this infatuation, paralyzed by your presence
Looking at me
Telling me that I’m worthy, that I have what you need
That I matter
A possible lifetime of tragedy starting with a glance in the flash of an eye
But nothing else matters
Every time I walk away I can feel it
I feel the warmth
I feel the glow
Like Sunshine drowning out the rain
The feeling I get when I hear your voice
Vibrations of happiness run through my body
The spirit that follows is uplifting and touches something inside
Im left with the effect
Like sunshine creeping over the trees and showing me the way
Just seeing your face tells me something
like a secret, I realize something's missing
Something beautiful, something crazy, something that brings peace
Someone illuminated
Like the sun waking up and showing me things I could never see
The sunshine comes but she always leaves
Leaving a shadow, leaving me wanting
Leaving me waiting until the next time I see your beautiful face
I feel like im sinking, just losing my shit thinking about all the sex i think i shoild be having
All the pretty people
The spit
The sweat
All the beautiful people
Its ridiculous, just an addiction ruining my life
Bondage and intrusive thought patterns
Running the show, calling the shots. Telling me what i can and will not do
Who I will be
I want to drink shots with you and howl at the moon.
nasty things, entire pages, whispers in the dark
Come a little closer so i can feel your scent and watch your lips as you read things considered obscene and talk about the beauty
Make me see.
I want to be myself, let it all go, cast away my skin and bare my soul.
Your fire inside has me sweating and thinking how your body would move
Talking and screaming
Reading and fucking
Licking and drooling
Read your poem and show it to me
Ride on top
say it loud
dance that little body round and round
Words with passion ignite my mind
Let me experience this connection from the inside
See your mind
Feel the need
lose myself Inside your wet dream
your flesh on top of mine, breath rushing through my ears
whisper things we cannot see
Bite my lip
and make me stare
see beyond the beautiful mess of sweat and hair.
Sitting next to you on the big chair, feeling your hand brush my skin
reading me things about streets and cock and beats running about.
I wanted to grab you underneath that blue and white poke a dot blouse
Let me taste
Give me more
Violate the rules
Who cares what other people do
Lets disappear
And lose ourselves tonight
Somewhere far away
things that dont exist
life lived in space
Just shit covered in dust
Spending every day making plans that never happen
Planning things that never come about
My head is filled with the possibilities
Filled with fear
Paralyzed by the outcome, one i couldn't possibly see.
Moving between times, in-between realities,
But its not real is it, it doesnt exist, it cant hurt me now
oh please
tell me that some other day
All I see is behind me, nothing but ashes of what use to be but the fires still burning deep,
As if it were yesterday
its always yesterday
Stuck in a loop, feelings of regret, digusting scenarios
Things that cant be changed, things that cant hurt me
Why is it still so real, hard to forget
Blinding lights preventing my eyes to see whats in front of me,
This moment escapes me
I cant lock it down
Cant tap in
Living in outer space in a distant time, one that cant hurt because its just fantasy
But it tries to overcome me
Preventing peace in the day, no clarity in the now
Unable to touch the air in front of me
Stuck in my head
Twisted in a dream
Of a day thats either gone or not happening
Tears at the sanity of living in today
Youve been searching for this fantasy your whole damn life
cosmic bullshit.
Perfection
a Hollywood dreamscape scenario
Will you give it all away, spend your life chasing something you cant quite grasp
Bet it all on chance
a person
something i will never have.
Ill tell you what i want
my fucking fantasy
thats easy.
I want a sweet little package created just for me.
Sounds turned down
Penetrating looks
a touch that feels magnetic
Feelings out of this world
my need for you is dominating everything rational, the depths of my soul.
This connection feels fatal, theres nothing to lose just futures to gain.
Someone to travel this path and not die alone
feel the same
